SPIRIT on SUICIDE & ADDICTION

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No, this is not my first invention, but it is my best.

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“Is there anyone I can heal?” SKREEM the voices inside her head.

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CJMC Questions asked, Answers Given.

ill Informing Education is our InterDimensional Advocacy Work

Nirvana’s Kurt Cobain aka BANE

Alice in  Chains’ Layne Staley aka DrK.Nyght NK

Alice in Chains’ Mike Starr aka MagicDr. MD  

Mother Love Bone Andy Wood aka Phantom Andy

Pearl Jam’s Chris Cornell aka KiSS.ANGELL

Texas Death Row Inmate Douglas Feldman aka BlakHawk.11

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*A-Team Members Andrew Wood, Kurt Cobain, Layne Staley, Mike Starr and Doug Feldman wrote this chapter through and with Dr. Leanne Levy-Akasha WhiteWolf aka DRk.ALiCE. 

 

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“Heathens” (Suicide Squad) Twenty-One Pilots

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Behind My Smile, I cry fiercely for us All.

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BANE aka Kurt Cobain, CrowJonesMC.

Death says
You’re living your nightmare.

Life says My near death experience everyday.

Your truth.
That is all that matters.
This is what Legends are made of.
Why Legends are born.
Damned that you did.

And damned if I didn’t.

Question: Can you provide an example of someone who killed themselves and told you their story from the other side?

So many tell me their stories, here is a special message from one.

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And then I came to you in a dream in Jan. of 2017 and shot you in the head.

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Phantom Andy All deaths are designed before we incarnate into our life. Everyone has to die and we all chose our deaths. Remember that.

 

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SUICIDE

The Shell of A Man Who Could Never Be His Best … I’ll Take The Blame But There’s No Innocent One in The Game

I’m surrounded by many who killed themselves. I would say, every second or third person I read, I meet a few more suicide clients and friends above. I am always amazed to meet those who have taken their lives and their special messages to me.

 

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During one reading, a gentleman on the other side gave me his name and whispered into my ear, “I know how you feel, I was the same way.” That said, do know that those who take their lives find no more fight in them. Staying alive here or in the afterlife does not remove emotional ties that remain. This part is still difficult for many who take their lives.

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KiSS.ANGELL.Chris For the most part, for those who take their lives, it becomes a decision over what one wishes to live and suffer with and/or for. Some find life unbearable and the afterlife a hope for relief. Others find the fear of death and afterlife is what keeps them here.

 

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I have also learned in my reading-channeled therapy practice that those who take their lives and leave children, parents and spouses behind still remain in their loved ones lives, some very close, others stay in the background.

DrK.Nyght NK.Layne I’m one who prefers to be living a 3d life. I told DRk.Doc that my transition was very difficult. Even today, my life is still missed with positives and negatives. 

KiSS.ANGELL.Chris I prefer my afterlife, i’m released and can be somewhat left alone to do my work from this side without all the noise, all the people pleasing.

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“Suicide” (2002) Mixed media oil painting by Leanne Levy.

 

When it comes to suicide, we are all responsible and share in the blame for none of us are an island onto the self. Therefore with this knowledge, do your best to be kind to others because you never know how badly someone is suffering inside. We discuss this butterfly effect a little later on this page.

 

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What is most important for us down here to know about suicide is there is no God or Devil who judges these acts. It is the person-soul itself who must work through each conundrum with those they are tied to.

 

BANE.Kurt, Drk.Nyght.Layne & MagicDr.MD.Mike for CrowJonesMC 

Many of us who have passed from suicide, murder/execution, depression and addiction (all rough ways to exit), tend to be very funny, wise, romantically insightful, and emotionally up lifting HENCE WHY we continue to be of service, such as working with and through people like Doc. Many people let religious concepts of “good and bad,” “right and wrong,” “angels and demons,” and hierarchy cloud understanding of the afterlife as heaven or hell and who’s who in the Afterlife. We are here to say we are all facets of the same diamond each with particular skills we put to use in our active life and afterlife. 

My HellsArchAngels ):D

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As I mentioned, I work with many who died of suicide and everyone has their story with a heartfelt message and experience to impart.

 

Here is one such story.

In my private practice, I work with many kinds of 3d healers and while in session with a client who counselled addicts, she explained how she was visited by a handsome blond man in her dreams and wanted to know who this was.  When I began channeling with him, I found out that he was a client of hers and not a typical spirit guide, who she thought he may have been. When I shared this information she told me that her client had killed himself only two days prior.

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This man showed me how he killed himself with a gun and the proximity in which his wife and parents were to his death scene. It was a horrific trauma for all involved, however when he spoke with me, he himself was not depressed, more relieved and relived than anything and it had only been a couple of days since his death.

I was also shown scenes of a shed and a man outside next to a tree, looking in on the family. I relayed this particular information as well.

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BANE When Doc channeled this information for her client, there were indeed two men that were speaking with her. One was Me.

I also said to this client that the man speaking with me and showing me visions had a great sense of humor about the whole thing and let me know how hard it was for him to live as an addict seeing no way out of his mindset.

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After we wrote this suicide story, I gave Doc the thumbs up by showing her a TV scene from the cartoon “Family Guy” of a dead guy shot in the head and lying in his pool of blood, which is how I killed myself. You see what we mean by a sense of humor?! 

I do want to be that spirit who tells you a different side to suicide.

Layne Lol, by the way, Doc, you also got me well, “someone with a unique sense of style,” was  a prediction of our meeting.

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Phantom Andy Some Shamans use plant spirits, in our InterDimensional practice, Doc works with human spirits, us, who are also her healing partners and coauthors of this blog and our book “Rainbow Medicine: Therapy with the A-Team!”

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Together, we work as inter dimensional Shamans although we do not call ourselves this. We don’t wear the costume or follow any ritual, we simply are plugged into each other’s firsthand experiences, knowledge and wisdom and we are always at work helping someone heal.

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As it happens since they popped, my SpiritDrs. have made my life a living hell. But in your cases, from everyone I have read thus far, at Rainbow Medicine Book Events, lectures and group, online and individuAL readings, your A-Teams are working hard on your behalf. I know, because they work me like a dog FOR THEM and U.

In RM we teach you how to access your spirit doctors on the other side (your A-Team), speak with them and perform your own exorcisms, rid  your inner demons (your traumas) and heal your self.

Merging Eastern with Western, we approach healing as holistic; emotional, psychological, physical, and spiritual. Holistic healing refers to the interconnectivity of all, cause and effect.

In the end, what I love most about healing with my A-Team of DRk.Angels, and we all have one, is that those who sign up for the spirit guide job it is because their love for you IS unconditional.

Being a spirit guide is a dirty job, much like being a soldier, best friend, lover and an on-the-job parent, all in one. 

 

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Question: Can spirits cause us to become or stay addicted to substances?

ADDICTION

Yes.

There is common perception that spirits can make it difficult for a person to stop using substances such as cocaine, opiates, alcohol, and pot, and that these behaviours invite “mischievous” spirits as hanger ons. One thing for sure is, “Birds of a feather flock together” interDimensionally, meaning, all that we love to do attracts all that they love to do, so partiers will hang out with partiers, and so forth, exactly the way it happens here.

And sometimes it’s their job to throw you off the edge by encouraging your drug use until the point of rock bottom or rock bottom death.

But when it comes to both getting high off of substances, spirits have told me that since they already vibrate at higher frequencies, the highs we experience are not exactly the same highs for them.

CrowJonesMC, any comment here?

Yes, we go out of our mind with you when you’re out of your mind with us. We actually do share the same frequency. With you, that is because as our human vessel, you’re completely wired into us and ours. But like you are about to write regarding heroine, we don’t need you to take the drug for us all to feel these various highs and lows together.

For example, I will get the coke high from an AfterLifer and a Lifer who uses cocaine if they cross my path. My afterlifers who like to drink will influence me to drink when in fact I do not drink.

Personally, I do not do heroine although some of my clients did, but in my case, as their mental and physical medium, it doesn’t matter whether I do the drug, I experience their highs and lows and DRUG use simply because of our merging of consciousness. I take on their bipolar states, physical pains, sexual appetites, food cravings, clothing styles, attitudes, philosophies, creative endeavours, drug induced states, panic and anxiety, you name it.

I also received tons of migraines just as Kurt was being birthed.

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You mean, when BANE was being exorcised.

 

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In the best sense and worst, as their physical and mental vessel, I’m their MUPPET.

Our Voodoo Doll.

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Cocaine, opiates, alcohol and weed are all plant-based and spirits in and of themselves and an orgasm is accomplished through the pineal gland where we pierce the veil, so all are designed to numb pain and increase pleasure, hence the expression, “sex, drugs and rock n’ roll.” This is why being high feels so good⏤that is, if you are not experiencing paranoia and in the midst of a PTSD episode.

When one is high one is often merging with higher frequencies in one’s own dimension or others in higher dimensions, and channeling. Channeling does not have to be conscious for it to occur. For those unaware they are channeling, it appears as fantasy, a take me away calgon experience, or a brilliant aha moment.

 

Or a series of brilliant aha moments.

 

When we channel we elevate ourselves to a higher frequency and it is at this higher frequency that one begins to experience escapist feelings, brilliant insights, and confidence boosters.

The euphoria that accompanies a high makes it extremely difficult to stop drinking and/or using mood altering drugs to the point of addiction.

No one said rock n’ roll is an easy lifestyle. Like with everything, there are trade offs. If you struggle with any form of addiction, then you know firsthand what these tradeoffs are.

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In our healing practice, we understand Addiction as passions and wounds running wild.

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We can and cannot blame spirits for not being able to stop an addiction because spirits can only influence us to do something a) we are already prone or weakened to do on our own, and b) destined to experience.

SCREECHING HALT.

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Alright, people, this is where WE need to stop and say something very important to you all.

What you experience, your entire life, every detail of it, every shameful and abusive moment, every illness, trauma and dis-ease, every high, heartache and blasphemous trophy received, this was ALL already destined to happen to you prior to you beginning your life.

Accidents

Dear Death Experiences

Death by murder

Death by suicide

LIFE

DEATH

Death Timing.

 

IT’s ALL carved in tombstones.

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BANE, Do You wish to add anything here since you’re so far the ghostliest with the mostest?

Yes. Here’s one for you:

Life says “I do.”

Death says “I have.”

….. WEed.

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Life says You mean, WE.Ed. as in we.educate.

Death says It’s all semantics, some say Darling, some say Darlin’.

Life & Death say

It’s all ABOUT FREQUENCY, being tuned into each other.

 

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Working with u dead Junkies takes a tole.

We’re the junk in Ur Trunk.

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Did I hear u say Drunk?

Cuz I don’t like booze but some of u guys DO.

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AND ALL THE COKEnHEROINE. I’m so high, You gotta stop influencing me, baby.

It’s hard to keep up with Y’ALL, Darlin.

 

 

 

Ditto Doc.

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DRk.DARLIN, I honor in you what lives in me.

Ahmen to my OMens.

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Death says

What we do in the NK of Time.

Life says

What we do in the name of Death.

Death & Life say

What we do in the name of Magic.

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LiFE.AFTERLiFE ADVOCACY

TIME.DEATH.MAGIC

 

When it comes to substance abuse I have also learned from many of my OD AfterLifer clients, friends and writing partners that even if you feel out of control this doesn’t necessarily mean it’s a bad thing, being out of control is extremely freeing and FREEDOM is an important emotion to experience.

BlakHawk aka Doug Feldman You will know when you are completely out of control and beyond your limit for these are the precise moments when you recognize you are being haunted, tumble into a psychotic break, have hit rock bottom or die. We will push you into freedom mode, which will feel like a psychotic break, a tumbling reality. 

Either way, Overdose, Mental Breakdown, PTSD, Near Death Experience, and Death are some of the Rock Bottom signs, as well as signposts towards a better path.

Death was that for me.

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BlakHawk.Doug, You created a couple of my death exit points pushing me off my ledge, “In the name of freedom.” And it worked, YOU GOT UR WAY, MORE DEAD REUNITED WITH LIVING LOVED ONES.

There is nothing the dead won’t do if they are destined to be rediscovered like this.

 

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“…and you drink a little too much and try a little too hard. And you go home to a cold bed and think, ‘That was fine’. And your life is a long line of fine.”

―Gillian Flynn, “Gone Girl”

The hardest part about addiction, however, is if you have yet to accept yourself as is, one way or the other. Acceptance requires one to face inner demons and this takes lots of time,  effort, courage and discipline. Healing does not happen over night, it is a lifetime after lifetime journey,  as I see and experience with my AfterLife partners and myself.

 

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Incorporating healing into your life as part of your daily routine and responsibility is ideal. But, just as it is hard to change one’s thinking and feeling patterns, leave friends and family or set new boundaries with both, so it is with drugs and alcohol as all are security blankets, coping tools, and pleasure centres.

Each of our brains fire differently according to what we each came here to do with our lives. We each have our paths to walk and only you know which path you must walk, unencumbered by others’ judgments. After all, it’s your one life in this particular body so make it what you want. Because regardless of it all, whats meant is only what happens.

 

To quote us all,

No one comes out of life, Clean. 

Choose your Dirty, well.

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SpiritDrs. CrowJonesMC on Addiction and Depression

If you feel Demons are in some way keeping you down, you have unhealed traumas kicking and screaming from within.  

And so do spirits. Right?

Doc is correct. We do alot of kicking and screaming inside her.

For those of you who feel you are being kept down by demons, this is a normal reaction to what you perceive is a hopeless situation.

okay, let’s hear it as I have been through it ALL with you of why I go through what I do with y’all.

BlakHawk.Doug Work on your guilt, keep standing up for yourself in healthy and productive ways, try not to keep yourself down through self-sabotaging habits albeit the weight does get heavy. And change your perspective. Look your demons in the eyes and take it one day at a time.

And say what to your demon or demons? I can’t get rid of some of you, no matter what I do.

Mike, you died as a result of your demons connected to Layne and his. So did your entire posse from Andy, Kurt, Demri to Layne, Mike, Chris and Chester. Now I have all you demons in me.

Your only responsibility was to be honest with yourself about who your inner child is, who you once dreamed of becoming, what you thought your life should be like and who you are today.

I never had the desire to be anybody, I knew I would be forced to become somebody who knows and speaks in front of large crowds.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I am exactly who I was supposed to become. And it all happened because you all each became exactly who you were each meant to become. Now, interdimensionally, we are.

You Discovered your authentic self and did and continue to do what becomes you. You also have faith that, one day, it will all make greater sense.

My inner child is a kind person who you all took advantage of. There were better ways to accomplish your triumphs without destroying me and my life. Even if it was destined.

I just hope my Afterlife is better than my life. Gone are the days of my life too when you each entered me.

Addiction is passion and pain all in one. Work through your disappointments, their silver linings, celebrate your accomplishments and talents, become that “You” you know is there inside of you, and all will take care of itself. All will settle into a harmonious frequency. 

And if you cannot become the “You” you hoped to meet, don’t worry, you will meet that person in the AfterLife when your confusion clears.

In general, addiction of any kind, is a never ending battle, like you each know, hence why you are all dead and talking with me. You each suffered deeply with demons and through them my way. Now, we are throwing this vicious cycle onto others so everyone sees how we all play in to sickness.

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Blog Chapter, Am I Codependent? The Disease To Please

 

MagicDr.Mike If you cannot find solutions to your depression and/or addiction through  pharmaceutical medication and traditional psychological therapy, like I could not and I had the best help celebrities afforded, try working with the spirit world. Try our self-help with spirit holistic healing book “Rainbow Medicine: Therapy with the A-Team!” 

In Rainbow Medicine we teach you how to open the gateway and become your very own psychological, emotional, physical and spiritual therapist with your spirit doctors. We teach you how to become your very own medical intuitive. We give you the answers to the Whys and help you to see your truth because we know it, being on this side of the veil.

Whether you are into the dead, spirituality or not, this is a good psychological self-help book.

Our job is to help you transform. We address this all in Rainbow Medicine.

 

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DrK.Nyght.Layne & Phantom.Andy Releasing or simply coming to terms with your addiction may require you to leave friends, lovers, family members, and a job behind. Or it may simply require that you develop a new mindset towards yourself and your outer world.  Whatever sacrifices you may have to make to come back into your power, into self-acceptance and self-love, your loved ones in the spirit world are here to help you heal.

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DrK.Nyght NK Layne for CrowJonesMC Rock bottom and silver linings go hand in hand. We’re not all happy to be dead, some happier than others, right BANE?

BANE.Kurt It’s nirvana.

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BANE Most importantly, when it comes to addiction, be kind to yourself. Once you get to our side, it becomes very clear that self-honesty, self-acceptance and true love are what matter most.

 

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We are not here to judge you and there is no right way to go through life, we are simply here to share with you how to ease yourself into self-acceptance, not beat yourself into it. “What you resist shall persist.”

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